Better Reign in Hell than Serve in Heaven - SantaCruz-

Hiccup time

2009-04-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

Im really disappointed with you .im serious ..dunno why everythin that i say juz cant go in her head ..everytime im juz tryin my best to make things better but the otherside will think that im controlling her..hello do u think i dont have better things to do is it ..I always ask myself why should i be so 'san fu' ..for doing all these ,do u know that i dont get anything at all ..Im juz thinking on ur behalf but why the feedback that i always get must be negative ..

But is ok ...Today i already found the answer ..I wont care so much bout u anymore ..Just go ahead what u feel like doing ..In the future u no need ask me anything and just go on with ur life which u think you are always correct ..so please dont (i beg u) in the future please dont blame me if u think im change or not being so caring anymore ..this is wat u want ..You always think i make ur life hard but do u think b4 that actually im the one who is making myself hard juz bcoz of u (i bet u dont know) ..Lastly if u think wat u do is worth then juz go ahead ..

MESSI ,

You gotta dig it suckerzz

2009-03-24T17:10:00.002+08:00

well well all ends well ..Life seems to be more interesting day by days .You know why ? figure it our urself biatchh ..

Smoke Weed everyday ,
Lucifer Jr

BULLHEAD

2009-03-05T15:22:00.002+08:00

unreasonably obstinate; obstinately unmoving -

If u so keen to be what you are ,it is gone ..y can't u listen to people's advise .It is really not a way of life to be ..After all the things that i done ,i really feel like a fool now .Is this what i suppose to get ? and please dont talk to me bout tolerance when u have none of it ..If u so like to take good care of your 'face' then go ahead .Im already trying so damn fcukin hard to make things better each day but end up it make me look like a dumdfuck coz other side juz wont listen ..Am i not caring ?? Am i not nice enough ?? I will be so "grateful" if u think im not good enough ..Thanks for informing that im not caring enough coz in the future things will be much more easier for me to be done ..Oh yeah i did promise you that i will be very tolerate with you when we first get together .i admit that .but doesnt mean i have to tolerate with all those nonsense things as well rite .furthermore for god sake can please let me feel worth it when everythin i do something .I dont aspect things from you but all i need juz juz that u appreciate it ..Tats all .Come on ,we are all grown up and i always believe that u will know how to think what's best for us .but so sad to say that you dont know .And please dont juz blame everythin on me when something happen ..In one word it is all bcoz of ur stubborness and taking care of your 'face' ..

I dunno what it will happen when you read this but im ready to face all the consequences coz after u read this all i believe none will go in our head and you will think that i wanna start an arguement again ..You wanna know why ? the same word again 'stubborn' ..things juz wont go in ur head for rational consideration .

Last but not least ,this phrase is taken from ur blog "every time you hurt me but turn around you apologize to gain my forgive..im human being too..why you always want me become soft and listen to wat you said" ..You are soft and always listen to what i said ??? i beg your pardon .hahaha if u listen to 20% what i had told you then i will be damn sure that this situation wont happen ..

What More do You Want from ME ,
Lucifer Jr

This is nonsense

2009-02-23T14:33:00.002+08:00

Y cant u be more considerate and not juz push ur own mistake to someone else when somethin happen .It is so damn unfair ..Yeah you are hurt ,so what .Do u think bout other people feeling b4 ..Human are juz like that ,when someone treat u nice consistently then u will think that yeah this is how i suppose to treat u and juz think that it is normal but then when some so small thing happen then u fully put da blame on tat person and categorize him as bad ..WTH ..dont make sense at all ..You should juz appreciate thing that people shower to you and not finding someone loop-holes ..Everytime when somethin happen ,im the one who have to console you no matter is my own fault or yours ..So do u think this is not good enough .I know ur personality are tough but so do i ..And i believe im much more tougher than you but y i can be the one who always 'tam' you no matter what it is .I do that coz i wanna minimize our arguement and strenghten our relation ..but did u ever think of it b4 .Why the hell on earth that im always the one who have to sacrifice .FYI a relationship is a matter of two person and not one ..I repeat again is TWO .Yeah u always say that i have a very high ego ,so how bout you ?? dont u think u are worst ..

Yeah right ,u said that wat u said last night is not serious and juz play play ..But u must know not everythin can be said out as u like .every single thing have their own limit .Juz think bout it if i put this situation the other way round ..I believe u will react the same like i do or maybe worst .Everyone have their own dignity so do i ..but the damn fcukin problem now is u still think that u did nothing wrong and it is part of my fault ..OMFG plz juz shoot me !!

Filling up with hatred ,
Lucifer Jr

Bro Wedding

2009-02-20T15:18:00.003+08:00

2009-02-19T14:48:00.002+08:00

blogging sux ..it really sux ..for those bloggers out there ,i have 2 words for ya (figure it out urself) ..hahahah juz joking ..It is ur own freedom to blog so no one have da right to stop it ..

Im the type of person who is too lazy to blog ,so if u were to see i post a blog on tat day mean im so damn fcukingggg boring .Im so tired now ,didnt have enough sleep yesterday ..went up to setapak to pick my girl around 9.30pm .After that we head to Cheras night market ..this is the 1st time i been there ..Trust me the nite market is fcukin huge and long like madingo's dick.As usual the place is full of girls with black legged pants and a few red legged pants (plz kill me) ..The place have a lot of variety of water watering food and beggars as well hahaha ..Overall is it a food paradise place .

Slept at almost 5am at tat nite coz watching 'slumdog millionaire' ..This is a fucking good must watch movie ..Yeah Man Utd match start at 4am .I watch till half time only coz by tat time the diameter between my eyelid is juz about 1mm ..UNited United !! the final score is 3-0 ..Scholes ,Berbatov and Rooney rockz ..For those Liverpool and Chelsea fans you can sux my dick .

Love it or Hate it the Underdogs On Top

2009-01-20T13:43:00.003+08:00

Got the news that she got the job in Kl Sentral ..Should i feel happy or i should feel sad ?? This mix feeling is really making me sick .If she work there then we gonna be separated by at least 70km away ..Furthermore she is staying wit her cousin sister which i dont seem to trust .Dunno is it bcoz i worry too much bout her ..I know she is very indepedent and can take good care of herself but i always believe that surrounding peoples can make a big influence to someone as well ..Aikz juz forget it coz i know i have to face this reality soon so why not i take it positively ..
I feel happy too when she told me that is has been offer the job .Yeah at least she dont juz sit in front of the tv 24hrs a day watching drama ,taiwanese talk show which i always think only will make human stupider ..Beside that she can earn $$$ for her braces that she had been dream of for such a long time .Overall working in a new place and enviroment will definitely give her a very good working experience .Dont worry girl ,i know you have our own plan and i wont ruin it ..The most important thing is ,you know what you are doing then everythin will be fine .

Luv Ya ,
Lucifer Jr

Hammer Smash Face

2009-01-12T16:46:00.000+08:00

There is something inside me
It's coming out
I feel like killing you
Let loose of the anger, held back too long
My blood runs cold
Through my anatomy, dwells another being
Rooted in my cortex, a servant to its bidding
Brutality becomes my appetite
Violence is now a way of life
The sledge my tool to torture
As it pounds down on your forehead
Eyes bulging from the sockets
With every swing of my mallet
I smash your fucking head in, until brains seep in
Through the crack
Blood does leak distorted beauty,
Catastrophe steaming slop.
Splattered all over me
Lifeless body, slouching dead
Lecherous abcess.
Where you once had a head
Avoiding the prophecy of
My new found lust
You will never live again,
Soon your life will end
I'll see you die at my feet, eternally I smash your face
Facial bones collapse as I crack your skull in half
Crushing, cranal, contents
Draining the snot, I rip out the eyes
Squeezing them in my hands nerves are incised
Peeling the flesh off the bottom of my weapon
Involuntarily pulpifying facial region
Suffer, and then you die
Torture, pulverised
At one with my sixth sense, I feel free
To kill as I please, No one can stop me
Created to kill, the carnage continues
Violently reshaping human facial tissue
Brutality becomes my appetite
Violence is now the way of life
The sledge my tool to torture
As it pounds down on your forehead

Grab ur glock when u see SueKheng ,call the cops when u see SueKheng

2008-12-29T15:16:00.003+08:00

Ain't today is a public holiday ?? damn im in ofc now while my friends is having their good time by themself ..But today be honest i have been slacking for the whole day doing nothin .facebooking ,pokering ,pet society-ing ,you-tubing ,msn-ing ,bah kut teh-ing and wanking ..ahhaaha im joking bout the last one ..Oh jesus Oh moses i freakin bored now .Can someone please come and save me .
Year 2008 gonna end in few days time .Should i be happy or sad ?? i dunno ..coz a lot of misery and happiness i have been gone through on this rough year .Let talk's bout all those happy time coz if once i start mentioning bout misery then i guess this blog gonna take me at least 3days to complete ..travelling and holiday is godlike .Yeah i went Pulau Redang and Batu Ferringhi this yr ..Yeah both of the island is in local .I know it is not Bali or Bora-Bora Island ,but yet i still enjoy it very the very much .Bitches roxx..i mean beaches .Next year i had promise myself to step my foot in Krabi island no matter wat .
And also in 2008 is the time where i meet my lovely lil angel ..She really make a drastic change to my life ..yeah no doubt she is SYH ..My brain juz cant stop thinkin of u every single minute .Yeah i admit i really fall deeply in love wit u ..Lastly i wanna thanks for brighten up my life even thought we are not a couple yet .but i hope soon u will accept me so that i can shower u wit more love ..Arrios Amigos !!

Ave-Sathanas
-Lucifer Jr-

Angel Wit the Scabbed Wings

2008-12-23T13:39:00.004+08:00

You are not good enough ??? Didn't know that people can value themself ..I thought usually is someone else who value it .Hmmm is juz too lame for me accept this ..By the way i never ask you to change b4 ..You can juz be yourself coz i love someone for who there are and not who they pretending as .For me now you are really good enough till sometimes i feel im the one who is the problematic person ..Let do a chart for this

You / Me

Hot / Cockhead
Smart / Dumb ass
Independent / Parasite
Friendly / Arrogant Bastard
Soft Hearted / Devilish
Tolerance / Selfish muthafucka

And that prove that u win by 6-0

I understand why u can't get along with my frens coz the way that we talk is a lil bit different from the rest ..We like to create our own language that y beginner will feel kinda blur wit it .But overall my frens say u r a nice person (ahemm they haven't see da real you yet) :) ..juz joking !!
Since when u look like a fool by sitting there doing nothin .I did to talk u and try to make bring u inside the conversation rite ..Lastly dunno why u can think that im those kind of person who like to control or stick to the partner .After scrathing my head for few day and yet i still can't find the answer .If u r nice enough then can let me know why ? hehe

Friends with weed is better

2008-12-19T15:05:00.003+08:00

Im happy and really looking forward for genting tomorrow .but now the sad thing is i have to wait for another 14 more hours only i can get to see her .Every minutes seem like an hour now .Evrythin is moving really slow now ..Yeah im too bored till i have to kill time by writing personal song lyric hehe ..yeah im lame ..Rockerzz 4 life

Blow out the candles
On all my frankensteins.
At least my death wish will come true.
You taste like Valentine's and
We cry,
You're like a birthday.
I should have picked the photograph
It lasted longer than you.

Putting holes in happiness.
We'll paint the future black
If it needs any color.
My death sentence is a story
Who'll be digging when you finally let me die?
The romance of our assassination
If you're Bonnie, I'll be your Clyde.
But the grass is greener here and
I can see all of your snakes.
You wear your ruins well
Please run away with me to hell.

-Untitled-

2008-12-17T12:30:00.002+08:00

Remember remember 16th of december .. everythin is juz so mix up .I dunno wheter the goD is playing me or what ..There is good and very bad things happen to me ..An customer is screwing me upside down since last week coz his goods haven't arrive to his place in Kota Kinabalu .So i called up the shipping company and just get to find out that the item is not with them and they say they didnt receive it b4 .It mean the item is missing .OMFG i know this time im i deep shit .We have to pay compensation to the customer which cost a few thousand .I know this time my bro gonna blow my ass up . But overall im quite sure that the shipping company did took the item from us .Anyway fuck it .
During the afternoon i heard a good news telling that i will be going out with her tonite .Wow was so damn happy coz can get to see her again .Luckily there is somethin to cheer me up .Eventually the plan was2 go do some snacks shopping in Tesco then after that go have a drink nearby while waiting to go karaoke in BT .Juz imagine that .I will get to see her for more than 7hrs .This is my daily dream .Well i suppose to pick her up at 8.30 manatahu last last minute got a customer come to my shop and i have to entertain him till almost 8.00 .ZzzZzz ..WTF i have ad promise her 8.30 ..Im so sorry bout tat ..so i tell her that i might be coming a lil slighty late .So i rush home to have my dinner and go get ready ..Another time that fucking unlucky jinx come again ..Im in such a hurry and yet i cant find my car key .At that time i really feel like punching someone coz my temperature rising high up the sky .After ransacking my whole entire fcukin house then only i get to know that my sister is having the damn key .And the worst thing is she is outside with her damn frens .At tat time i really feel like taking a machine gun and spray at humans .So i waited for her till 10.10pm to pass me the key .Afterall i started to relieve and speed to her house to pick her up ..Luckily she is nice enough and didnt even say anythin bout my punctuality ..One more time i really wanna apologize again to you for making u wait like a sor por at home .SORRY !!
And up luckily we still manage to get to Tesco coz it close at 11pm ..After getting some tidbits from there then we buzz off to yum char till 11.50pm ..Yeahhh this time we are going2karaoke ..And also this is the first time i went karaoke with juz 2persons ..Wat i worry is i scare i will make her bored coz im a damn fcukin lousy cockhead with a frog voice singer ..Hahahaha here come the highlite of the day ..The porridge that i plan to had for my supper fucking spill all over my pants ..FUCK !! It is damn gross and juz imagine the ingredients for the porridge is salted egg ,century egg ,canned fish ,some so called rotten tofu ,soya sauce and SESAME OIL ..OMFG i know im in deep shit .The smell of that SESAME OIL juz wont go away .

Yeah after that we sang till 3am ..I know this is 1st time in my life that i sing so many songs in a day and also for the 1st time i feel karaoke is nice hahaha ..Is it maybe bcoz of her ? ya i think soH ..Even though so many fcuk up thing happen during the day but end up i still feel happy and satisfy .Overall it is a damn good nite and really didnt feel this kind of feeling after so long .How nice if i can be with her every single days in my life .SHE juz make my day ..
Dont guess anymore .The "she' that i referring is SYH !!

-Lucifer Jr a.k.a ennoviy_vul

Life's a bitch and then u die

2008-12-12T16:03:00.003+08:00

Genting suppose to be a chilling and enjoying place to be but end up become a misery which is so shit till i can find a defination for it ..Overall what i can say is SAD ..
Juz let the sad thing a side ,and start with somethin that cheer me up ..ermmmm Damn i can't find any .. Is that my life is so sux till i can't think of any wonderful things .Life's a bitch and then u die .

It's a fucked up world
A fucked up place
Everybody's judged by their fucked up face
Fucked up dreams
Is a fucked up day
Fucked up press
And fucked up lies
Ain't life a bitch?
A fucked up bitch
A fucked up sore with a fucked up stitch
A fucked up head
Is a fucked up shame
Swinging on my nuts
Is a fucked up game
Jealousy filling up a fucked up mind
It's real fucked up

Everythin is juz so fuck up till everythin tat come out from my mind is also that fuck up ..Sry for so many vulgars but juz can't help it .

crab ,clap ,CRAP ..

2008-12-06T13:09:00.003+08:00

yawnz !! yawnz !! yawnz !! arhh today is a super duper tired day ..Didnt have enough sleep last nite and have to wake up early for work ..My whole body is damn aching now .Anyone who know how2massage can please give me a hand .Damn tonite somemore got fren's brother wedding dinner .How nice if she can be my partner tonite but im quite sure that the possibility is 0% . .Duh !! Regreted that yesterday shouldn't go all out .and i believe tonite also gonna be a drunkard nite ..Who the hell on earth created alcohol that make people suffer ..That person should get hang or dump to klang river to feed crocodile .

My moto for the month is 'No Liquor ,Smoke Less and Double Up My Effort to go after SYH(or maybe triple)' Malaysia Boleh ,SantaCruz Boleh .

anyway sry for the text msg last nite if the contain did offend you .I really got no idea when i send it ..

This is specially for my EMO friend !!

2008-12-03T17:57:00.000+08:00

Today is a quite busy day ..so dont think i will scratch much on my blog ..Futhermore im quite sleepy when im writing this blog coz didnt have enough sleep the day before ..yawnzz

Yeah so let pictures do the writing today

What a fuck up month

2008-12-02T17:44:00.001+08:00

Can i skip the mth of December and straight away become January ..Wahhhhhh it is really the shittest mth for me ..Everythin ahead in this mth is just not right ..Y did so many things happen at once .I cannot take it anymore ..My financial crisis is worst than US ..If any Loan Shark ever read this blog please do not hesitate to give me a call .Im definitly be your customer ..And also Christmas is coming .A day for those lame christian to celebrate ..by da way it is not even a day for christian to celebrate coz it dont belong to them .Give back dec 25 to Paganism ..
Everyone seem to be enjoying this mth coz it have a lot of holidays but not me ..I wish i can work 16hrs a day so that i can have 2mth salary in one mth ..how nice !!
Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh how to pass this mth ..can anyone please tell me

I hope this mth I can spend more time with SYH .coz everytime when I see her i will be very happy back no matter wat happen .. You are my only inspiration ..

-Ave Satanas-

Black Metal 4 life till the day i die

2008-12-01T17:11:00.000+08:00

I really don't understand why malaysian can't accept black metal as part of the genre in music .Only those shallow fuck up moron retart muthafucka will always assume black metal is related to satanism ..WTF !! If you are still so damn fcukin stupid then please google it and find the definition of black metal u pathetic piece of shit ..
Doesn't mean bcoz it have fast tempos ,growling vocal and etc make you think it is rubbish .I believe those R&B and hip hop is the main contributer to the junkyard ..that is totally crap ..
Yeah it is true that varg vikernes did burn down some church in Norway but neither molesting or sleep wit children is any better like what micheal jackson did ..
I know a lot people will think that people who listen to black metal is out of their mind .And i can say plz stfu before you know what is black metal is all about , you chicken shit .know ur role and shut your mouth ..black metal is generally opposed to Christianity and supportive of individualism .What wrong with that ..It this suppose to mean that if someone disbelief in Christianity then they are wrong ??? Give me a break ..Anyway ,anyhow why should I be so provoked by other people's behaviour ..It is all bout me ,myself and I ..Lastly what I wanna say is fuck those shallow christians ..Heaven is juz playin a fool wit u bitches

She Is The One

2008-11-28T16:31:00.000+08:00

Sry if im sux in blogging coz apparently this is my first time ever doing such thing in my whole entire life ..Well actually i dunno what make me to have a blog coz i dont think my life is so interesting until need to be shared wit peoples ..Enough of the crap .let's go straight to the point .

SHE IS THE ONE ..I spoke to her yesterday and she tell me that if i need to go after someone then i have to be sincere ..I think im too dumb to be sincere ..or is that mean all this while im not sincere ?

She is really special for me from the very first time i met her ..I dunno how to explain it but at that time she really melted me ..hahaha ..And after on what caught me the most bout her is her character and personality ..She is really that type of girl that i have been searching for ages ago .Thanks goD that such person exist and brighten up my life ..that all folks ..gotta cruise ..will talk bout her more in the future ..but dont worry i wont expose you out ,ms Popiah

Ave Sathanas